Playlists

When putting together a playlist, I like to think about what purpose it serves or what mood it describes. This is aside from putting up lists by Artist/ Band. I think music has different functions: it can be background noise while you're working/ driving, a mood elevator/ downer... quick beats also get me through running sometimes. It feels natural for me to put my music together according to function or emotion. I guess it's kind of similar to Barney's "Psyched!" playlist (remember that one?? as in the one with "SHOT THROUGH THE HEART AND YOU'RE TO BLAME...") A peek into my iPod shows playlists entitled dreamland, play out loud, ready steady, etc.

A couple of examples:

Uppers
- Welcome to the Jungle -- Guns N Roses
- Clocks -- Coldplay
- City of Blinding Lights -- U2

Suicidal
- Details in the Fabric -- Jason Mraz
- Lost -- Coldplay
- Hold On -- Sarah Mclachlan

Comfort
- Ocean Drive -- Lighthouse Family
- By Your Side -- Sade
- Breathe -- Michelle Branch

Steady
- Heartbeats -- Jose Gonzales
- Any Lucky Penny -- Nikki Hassman
- All I Want -- Toad the Wet Sprocket

Running
- Feel it in My Bones -- Tiesto (w/ Tegan and Sara)
- Stronger -- Kanye West
- When Love Takes Over -- David Guetta (w/ Kelly Rowland)

Gratefulness

Everyone goes through a time in their lives when they think its the hardest thing they've ever been put thru. When they think that nothing could be worse and that the world is on their shoulders. We go thru all that when we leave childhood and enter the world of lost innocence. Being very O.A. and overly dramatic as a teenager I have actually gone through that feeling numerous times in my short life of almost 30years. Now that I am a mother I realize how trivial and funny most of my dramas were back then. As we grow older the things we thought were so important become a mere memory and sometimes we even forget about it after that same year. I remember worrying so much about being cool, getting better grades, boys and clothes. Today as I finished reading a Love letter from a dad to his son who recently passed away I want to kick myself for still being so very trivial in my everyday life. I am no longer overly dramatic, I am no longer overly sentimental and I am no longer overly emotional. I actually don't care anymore about alot of things and I now just sit there and hide in my cave watching the world inside TV unfolds. How I wish I only changed the 1st of the 3. We should show the people we love them while we still can. The son who passed away was a friend, though not a close one to me, he was closer to my husband and like a brother to my brother in law. The 1st night of the wake I thought my heart would give up on me as I heard the father cry and wail and moan the whole hour of the mass. I have never seen a father so heartbroken my entire life. I have never seen a father cry so openly and with so much abandon. To this day his cry haunts me. To this day I cry when I think of him.

We've heard all the writers and poets say to seize the day, to live each day as if it were your last. We always forget to do that, I always forget. I focus on the negative and I fill my days with useless things. So, today I just wanted to take the time to say that... I am grateful to be alive. I am very very grateful to have a husband who is kind and patient. I am still amazed at how lucky I am every time I see my child. I am blessed to have friends who are always there for me even when they aren't around all the time. I have a family who I can count on anytime of the day about anything in the world. I have more than I need and I really shouldn't ask for more.

Thank you God for each day you give to me and thank you for all the things mentioned above.