STUCK

Can you imagine walking into a tree of ants while being covered with honey? Or getting you head stuck in a jar filled with cockroaches? That is how i sometimes feel when i am with this certain group of people. I feel like i'm stuck and there's no way out. i don't feel this way because I want to, I feel this way for a number of reasons... for example this situation happened and is constantly happening to me when i see them:

I used to smoke. I stopped bec i am pregnant. I didnt want to tell them the truth so i said i stopped bec i have bronchitis, wc is also true. This 1 person, let us name him/her "Car", says to me "Why quit just because you have bronchitis? Uminom ka nlng ng anti biotics! okay na yan!" I am almost 30yrs old. I am rude when i think i can get away with it, i am mean whenever i feel like it and i am neither friendly nor am i accommodating... my point is, I am not the type of person who succumbs to peer pressure, not when i was 25 and most definitely not at 30. Every time i see Car she nags me about smoking, i really do not understand why. I am irritated to the point that anytime she speaks i just ignore her, i pretend not to hear her and yet she still doesnt get it.

Next example: lets us name the girl Cliff

i hate talking politics with dumb ppl so tahimik lng ako. then she asks me why i was wearing a noynoy watch, sabi ko kasi noynoy ako. (duh) she said, villar ka dapat. sabi ko, ayoko sa knya. once a businesman always a businesman. she said si noynoy mayabang! super ! buong pamilya nya sobrang yabang. mga anak ni villar super duper bait. me: uhmmmmm (in my head: wtf?! ) sabi ko i really dont think mayabang silang lahat kasi kilala namin iba sa knila. she says "kilala din ni rex sila and lahat sila super yabang tlaga bkt ka boboto ng mayabang?" sabi ko "well, always naman may maninira sa kanila"she says.."di yan sira kasi totoo" sabi ko "sira yan kasi nagsasbai ka ng bad abt him" she says indi nga sira kasi totoo. sabi ng isa "indi chismis pero sira pa din" sabi ko yun, sakto, di ko sinasabing chismis. sinasabi ko naninira ka sabi nya yun kay villar and c5 di yun sira kasi totoo naman. sabi ko, sira pa din. sabi nya "fine whatever"

Upon analysis of the conversation, I realized that this is what it feels like to be stuck in an elevator with flying cockroaches chasing you in the dark. I regret not saying alot of things as a reply to her idiocy, I do. But I regret more that she always sits at the table where I sit. I am so sad to have to be surrounded by people I barely like. That the rare moments I do go out, I have to be with people who always forget their brains in the car or at home. Life is short, I shouldn't have to be tortured this way anymore!