Silence

I often wish for complete silence. For the silence to ring in my ears and echo in my head. Living with a screaming baby and relentless neighbors can make you wish for silence so much you'd give up ur lunch just for the world to become quiet for 5mins. Having annoying in laws and irrational grandparents can make you wish you were an island. Reading about the news on the mass murder of pregant women and journalists in the country makes you want to go to outerspace.

This is why i stay at home and watch my tv shows, because living real life just plain old sucks. I would much rather live inside a box rather than know all the things i know this wkend that i didnt know before. Living life is hard. Watching an old man try and get excited to ride in his wheelchair because he's been stuck in his bed for weeks just does you no good. Everyday all I hear is bad news. His platelets are low. His tongue is full of cold sores. I hate it. When i die, i hope i die quick and easy. I hope i dont ever have to go to the hospital.

Pls just leave me alone. I just want to sit at my desk and watch and play my games. Can't all that noise just give me a break?